Mood: Ambitious
Music: The Shins - "Australia"
Medicine: Starting up Anatomy!
Breaks.
As long as they may be, they're never long enough. I've come to the realization that any future "breaks" that I may be so lucky to indulge in will soar by, representing momentary glimpses of what my life once was. This Thanksgiving break was fantastic, of course, but extremely short lived. I wish I could spend more afternoons relaxing, nonchalantly meandering my way through the day. ;)
Of course, I can't say that I regret my decision to pursue a life of learning and servitude. Quite the opposite. I've put all my focus and desire into becoming a doctor since the middle of college. Most everything I did was to accomplish that dream of getting into medical school. And now that I'm in medical school, it's a reality. I love every moment that I spend with my classmates, despite all the studying that needs to be done when I'm with them. It certainly is daunting and exhausting to keep up, but the information that I have learned is invaluable! Not only for myself, but for others. That thought alone makes everything I do right now worthwhile.
Anatomy starts tomorrow. This is both terrifying and exciting, as you may have guessed. I won't be cutting into cadavers until the 1st, but in the meantime, I've got a lot of reading and preparation to do! On the third, I'll actually be presenting my dissection to classmates. So... to summarize... I have to be on top of my shit. Already I feel behind. I've spent most of the day making sure I have all my anatomy textbooks, appropriate dissection equipment, and tools I need to start anatomy off with a resounding BANG. I guess I should start reading now, huh?
When I started this post, I asked myself, what do I expect to gain from my experiences of anatomy? What challenges or fears will I face? From all that I've heard so far from the second years, I'll be losing another huge chunk of my life. Most of the time will be spent in the anatomy lab, in an attempt to grasp the intricate nuances of the human body... and how to name them. I have no doubt that the names themselves will prove difficult. Anyhow. I think what I'm thinking about the most is cutting into the cadaver. Seems kind of crazy. I mean, it was once a live person. Will it be hard for me to be around it? To cut into it? My brain tells me no, as well it should, because I shouldn't be gearing myself up to fail. I know I can do it. But I suppose it's natural that such a foreign affair stirs up some sort of anxiety within me. Nevertheless, I look forward to conquering anatomy!
Undoubtedly, I'll be posting against soon, likely after my first dissection. We'll see. I really want to keep an up to date blog about my experiences with anatomy. Plus, I should probably start writing about music. That'll keep me grounded. I should make sure I take the time out of my day to do that. Not now though. Haha... Next time! And I'll write something less vague and more specific :P Maybe.
